Hi God,
It's me again.
I'm pretty sure you know that I try to build an attachment to Oppa again.
I don't understand God why I have been doing it. Is love irrational? Or simply I'm just stupid!
It's already past 5 years since I know him and still, this affinity is going nowhere. I can't control my heart to stop thinking about Oppa. But actually, I want to stop.
I always repeat my wishes, that if he is the one please make it clear, if not just throw him away. But I always end up back again to him, again, and again. I dunno it is a God sign or my selfishness.
How long do I have to stay in this unidentified connection? I'm tired but I can't let him go.
God, I know you know my hopes. Help me ðŸ˜