One day after I wrote my last post. God required my request. Oppa and I had a big argument. I caught him cheating on me.
LIAR! One word that I really want to shout to him finally happened. I was furious, mad, sad but then I remembered my last post and suddenly it felt like God opened my eyes, heard my pray and granted my wish.
Today is 2 months after a big fight with him. And I start missing him again. i dont want it but I cant!
I want to hate him, but i cant. I want to stop knowing him but I cant. I know he is not worth it at all but I cant
God, please make me capable to forget him, hate him, throw away him. Please God.
My heart is hurt, empty. I dont know what I am feeling. Lonely and dull.
but
I want to be happy.
